Life Update: Work, Studies and Blog

Hello, beautiful soul. I am currently writing this on a typical June afternoon in Phnom Penh – concurrent rains have washed off the dust of the day’s fast-paced lifestyle, and the playful sun is out and about playing tricks with the silver-gray clouds. In this seemingly unpredictable day, I thought of sharing how I balance my lifestyle. I’m currently employed, committed to my blog, and enrolled in an e-distant learning. These three current priorities of mine made my social life as something I have to put effort on. I was not expecting that to happen. Amidst the fact that technology has eradicated, or minimized if not, the social barriers that were then present, nothing beats the impact of physical presence. That, too, has to be sandwiched in. Well, that’s how life is. It’s a whirlwind – the beautiful type.

Work

At the moment, I’m a government employee. Work is demanding both physically and mentally. There are times when I’m required to work on weekends or holidays. I have to meet yearly expected outputs and design output-based innovations to cater to my recipients’ present condition. I could go on and talk endlessly about work; but bottom line is that I get to savor both of work demands and nonchalance even without prior notice or whatnot. What makes work even more difficult is its similarity with a toddler who’s slowly creeping in on its first crawl. Though I am given the freedom to think, I am more likely concerned with the blend of expectations, reality, and systematic process. Yes, work seems hectic, but maybe it’s just me and my head; paranoid and scared to fail.

Studies

E-distant learning is an innovative process which permits formal education beyond the four walls of a classroom setting through utilizing the internet. It seems and sounds fun; I agree to that. However, life cannot be always about the joys. This type of learning, I indulged myself in, meant tons and tons of reading materials, researches and papers. I consider it the compensation of it all. I’m free to decide on my learning pace and academic freedom without the need to report to my university unless stated. But because of that, I think that I have to double my effort to finish my requirements which doesn’t only meet the expectations and standards of my instructors, but as requite of the aforementioned “freedom” I was entitled with.

Passion

My blog has been up for 6 months already. Having one is no joke and requires a tedious task to make sure that I upload quality content every 5 days. I made this as a commitment to myself, to my love in writing and anything beauty-related both inside and out, and to my passion to entertain and share what I have to others. I have delayed this for quite some time already, and because I thought I don’t still have much on my plate, I eventually said yes. Putting the sarcasm aside, I did my blog for myself. I knew I had to put out a safe place which I could call me and mine where I could freely do my thing and what I want.

What now?

Balancing my work, my self-investment, and my passion demands a serious dedication and/with time management. There are times when deadlines were already beating my sanity. Good thing that stress and panic brings out my creative juices which allows me to finish things. Probably this is me just wanting to serve a purpose, to excel, or to tell myself that I’m actually doing something. Maybe I’m still searching for self-contentment. Am I there? I’m not quite sure, just like how I feel with this weather. But I think I’m getting closer.